今天是星期日，毕业了几个月，开始工作了4个月，几个星期六也工作了，开始迷糊了时间的去留。
At the starting at my job, I was a rookie, was interested in anything I was given opportunity to interact with. Was very lucky that my boss liked me, interested in the curiosity in me, looked high upon me.
But not every time was sunshine, there was some ups and downs. Most of the people in the office is not positive thinking, nor have positive influence.
Perhaps it was me, who have a different mindset with everyone, so it was hard to explain what i felt and my perspective, or so they said that some path are meant to taken alone.
I am an independent person, or at least I looked like one, but sometimes I also need guidance. I'm loosing my grip, It's very hard to keep motivating myself constantly. I can feel that my momentum is getting lower and lower.
What really motivates me? Perhaps is it curiosity? Time seems to slip through my hand with all the stress and petty jobs that there is not enough time for me to think through it.
I need some time, and some space, so that I have more time, and more space.
