Monday 29 September 2014

#14 耳机 earphone

Earphones may be just an equipment to you, but it can be my saviour.

One of the most important element for me, undoubtedly is the "quiet" moment.

For someone who is introvert like me, we recharge our energy not by talking to people around us, but rather find a quiet place, spend time alone there doing whatever activities which we are comfortable with.

For me, as I am not really comfortable socializing with others, I have a lot of thinking in my head spinning all the time. Sometimes, you might see that I'm doing nothing, staring at a blank space for few minutes, most of the time I'm conversing with myself in my head, while sometimes I'm really just thinking of nothing and enjoying the peaceful thoughts.

However, in my family, it felt like most of them did not understand and comprehend the "quiet" moment that I need. I did not have a bedroom for myself, and my bedroom does not have a proper study table or chair to use. Hence, my daily activities are done in living room. I felt that I was constantly interrupted and being spied on every action I made, even though they did not really care what I'm doing.

There's really no use talking about it to them, because they will just find the excuses to counter my argument, sometimes it just felt that they say whatever just to win, which doesn't help at all.

In these desperate times, the most near "quiet" moment I have are the times when I put on my earphone. Play some music or songs I like, or even put on earphone for the sake of noise reduction, at that instance it can make me feel more peace, focus, or even energized. Sometimes it can also let me contact with inner self, with some deep thoughts and reflects on life.

Oh how I missed the times at university, where I have my own room, able to do whatever I want.